YOU TOLD YOUR GRANDMA LINDA THAT YOU WANT A BABY SISTER. THAT YOUR DADDY AND I HAVE TO GO TO THE STORE AND GET YOU A BABY SISTER. I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT THAT. WELL I DO KNOW, BUT IT'S ONE OF THOSE SCARY FEELINGS. LIKE, I WANT ANOTHER BABY. I TOTALLY DO. BUT THE IDEA OF HAVING ANOTHER AND NOT HAVING AS MUCH TIME FOR YOU AS I DO RIGHT NOW SCARES ME, B/C I DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL, IN ANY WAY, NEGLECTED OR UNLOVED. AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO EVER BE JEALOUS OF YOUR SIBLING (B/C WHILE I'D LOVE ANOTHER GIRL, I CAN'T PROMISE WHAT YOUR DADDY AND I WOULD CREATE. ALL I COULD PROMISE WOULD BE THAT IT'D BE HUMAN). AND WHILE I DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL LEFT OUT/JEALOUS/UNLOVED/ETC, I ALSO WOULDN'T WANT THE NEW BABY TO FEEL THAT WAY AT ALL EITHER. I'D WANT TO MAKE 10000000% SURE THAT YOU BOTH KNEW AND FELT LOVED BY YOUR DADDY AND ME.
HAVING ANOTHER BABY WOULD MEAN LESS SNUGGLE TIME WITH YOU. THAT'S SAD. THE THOUGHT OF NOT HOLDING YOUR PRECIOUS SELF ALL NIGHT LONG MAKES ME SAD. BUT YOU REALLY DO NEED TO SLEEP IN YOUR OWN BED. YOU'RE ALMOST 4 NOW. YOUR BED IS WHERE YOU SHOULD BE.
IF WE HAD ANOTHER BABY, IT WOULD HAVE TO SLEEP IN ITS BED, SO YOU WOULD HAVE TO AS WELL.
WHAT IF IT'S A BOY? WE'D HAVE TO SPLIT THE ROOM DECORATIONS B/C WE CAN'T MOVE, SO YOU'D HAVE TO SHARE A ROOM WITH IT, REGARDLESS OF GENDER.
GOSH, LO. I JUST DON'T KNOW. WHILE THERE'S SO MANY POSITIVES ABOUT ANOTHER BABY, THERE'S SO MUCH WE'D BE GIVING UP BY DOING SO. BUT THERE'S ALSO SO MUCH TO GAIN. HELL, HAVING YOU WAS TERRIFYING AND AMAZING. I'VE ASKED YOU A FEW TIMES IF YOU REALLY WANT ONE. I HAVEN'T TOLD YOU IT'D BE A PLAYMATE, B/C A BABY IS BY NO MEANS A PLAYMATE. I'VE ASKED YOU IF YOU'D HELP ME CHANGE DIAPERS AND FEED IT. YOU SAY YES EVERY TIME. YOU'VE EVEN SAID, "MOMMA, I PROMISE TO SHARE MY TOYS WITH MY BABY SISTER. I PROMISE."
YOU'RE JUST SO CUTE, BABY. I FIND MYSELF STARING IN AMAZEMENT AND AWE AT YOU SO MANY TIMES THRU THE DAY. EVERYTHING YOU SAY IS WONDERFUL. YOUR HAND GESTURES ARE PRECIOUS. YOUR HUGS ARE THE BEST THING EVER. YOU ARE THE BEST THING EVER.
I TELL YOU EVERY DAY, MANY TIMES A DAY, SO I HOPE YOU BELIEVE ME, BUT YOU REALLY ARE MY FAVORITE PERSON. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING.
♥ MOMMA