OH MY GRACIOUS. YOU HAVE GOT A STUBBORN LITTLE HEAD ON YOUR SHOULDERS. YOU WON'T GO TO BED UNTIL 9 OR 10 AT NIGHT, YOU TELL ME TO STOP IT, YOU TELL ME TO SHUT UP, YOU ELBOW ME, YOU HIT ME, YOU WANT TO DO EVERYTHING "BY MYSELF!!!!"
YOU'RE GROWING UP AND ASSERTING YOUR INDEPENDENCE. I TRIED TIME OUTS, THEY DID NOTHING BUT MAKE YOU SCREAM LOUDER AND YOU DIDN'T LEARN ANY LESSON FROM IT. SO NOW I'M HAVING TO COUNT TO THREE AS A WARNING FOR WHEN YOU'RE SMARTING OFF OR TELLING ME TO SHUT UP OR WHATEVER - IF I GET TO THREE, YOU GET A POP ON YOUR BUTT - AND THAT DOESN'T EVEN WORK THAT MUCH, SO I END UP HAVING TO POP YOU AGAIN MOST TIMES. I NEVER WANTED TO BE THAT MOM THAT POPS HER KID ON THE BUTT FOR DOING THIS OR THAT - BUT I AM. YOU DON'T ACKNOWLEDGE OR ACCEPT MY AUTHORITY, AND I UNDERSTAND THAT'S B/C YOU'RE 3 YEARS OLD - BUT I STILL HAVE TO TRY TO MAKE YOU LEARN THAT TELLING ANYONE, LET ALONE YOUR MOTHER AND FATHER TO SHUT UP IS NOT ACCEPTABLE (THERE'S A PHRASE I HATED WITH A PASSION WHILE GROWING UP).
SO I JUST WANT TO APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE FOR THE BUTT POPPING - AND JUST LET YOU KNOW THAT WHILE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND NOW, AND YOU'LL PROBABLY USE IT AS A REASON TO RESENT ME WHEN YOU'RE A TEENAGER - WHEN YOU GROW UP, YOU'LL UNDERSTAND, AND WHEN YOU HAVE A CHILD OF YOUR OWN, YOU'LL REALLY UNDERSTAND. AND HOPEFULLY YOU'LL BE THE MOM THAT HAS IT ALL REALLY EASY AND NEVER HAS ANY DISCIPLINE ISSUES AND NEVER HAS TO EVEN COUNT TO THREE - BUT IF YOU DO, KNOW THAT IT'S OK. I'M NOT DOING IT TO HURT YOU, I'M DOING IT B/C I HAVE TO TEACH YOU - AND THAT'S WHAT YOU'LL BE DOING (IF YOU END UP HAVING TO DO IT TO YOUR OWN CHILD).
ON A LIGHTER NOTE, WE GOT YOU A PUPPY. WELL, YOUR NINA GOT YOU A PUPPY, BUT DADDY AND I GAVE THE OK TO DO IT. SHE'S A SHIH TZU, LIKE MY LULU WAS. SHE'S BLACK AND WHITE, AND HER NAME IS GRACIE LU MCNIBBLES-PAISLEY. SHE'S AWESOME. SHE'S 4 MONTHS OLD. YOU LOVE HER. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT YOU HAVE TO BE GENTLE WITH HER B/C SHE'S STILL A BABY, BUT YOU'RE LEARNING. WATCHING YOU LAUGH AND RUN AND PLAY WITH HER IS WONDERFUL AND EXACTLY WHAT YOUR DADDY AND I WANTED YOU TO HAVE. SO THAT'S TOTALLY AWESOME.
NO MATTER WHAT, JUST KNOW THAT WE LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE ENTIRE WORLD AND ARE PROUD OF YOU.
I LOVE YOU ANGEL GIRL
♥ MOMMA
