I ALWAYS HAVE TO TOUCH YOU IN SOME WAY. IT’S LIKE I NEED CONSTANT PHYSICAL CONTACT. WHETHER IT’S MY FOOT TOUCHING YOURS, OR RUBBING YOUR BACK, PATTING YOUR HEAD, KISSING YOUR CHEEK, HOLDING YOUR HAND, HUGGING YOU, IT DOESN’T MATTER, I JUST ALWAYS WANT TO TOUCH YOU. LIKE IF I’M NOT TOUCHING YOU, YOU’RE NOT REAL OR SOMETHING. AND WHEN I’M HOLDING YOU AND ROCKING YOU TO SLEEP, I PUT MY FACE TO YOURS, AND BREATHE IN DEEPLY ON YOUR EXHALES. LIKE IT’LL SOMEHOW MAKE ME CLOSER TO YOU BY BREATHING IN YOUR BREATH. SILLY, I KNOW, BUT I’M JUST SO IN LOVE WITH YOU. EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU IS THE MOST AMAZING THING IN THE WORLD. YOU CAN BE SUCH A LITTLE BUTTHEAD, AND CAN HIT ME AND SMART OFF TO ME (YES, YOU’VE STARTED THAT), AND THEN YOU LOOK AT ME AND ALL THE FRUSTRATION AND HURT FEELINGS GOES AND I’M OVERWHELMED WITH ABSOLUTE LOVE. I WISH I COULD GIVE YOU EVERYTHING. I WISH I COULD GIVE YOU THE WHOLE WORLD. JUST THINKING OF YOU MAKES MY HEART FEEL LIKE IT’S GOING TO EXPLODE. I JUST ADORE YOU. EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. I ALWAYS WILL – EVEN WHEN YOU’RE AN UNRULY TEENAGER, LOL!
♥ MOMMA
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
I LOVE YOU. I TELL YOU THAT ALL THE TIME, AND IT’S ALWAYS TRUE. YOU’RE LEARNING TO SAY MORE THINGS, YOU’RE GROWING FASTER AND FASTER. YOU’RE THE MOST AMAZING LITTLE PERSON IN THE WHOLE WORLD. YOU ALWAYS WILL BE. YOU STILL ONLY SAY, “I YOU” OR “I MAMA” INSTEAD OF, “I LOVE YOU” OR “I LOVE YOU MAMA” – STILL PRECIOUS. I’VE TRIED TO TEACH YOU “LOVE” AND YOU REPEAT “YOVE”, OR JUST SAY “I YOU” INSTEAD OF THE WORD. CUTENESS!
THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS YOU’VE BEEN SICK, SO YOU HAVEN’T EATEN MUCH AND YOU’VE GONE BACK TO MULTIPLE BOTTLES THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT. YOU’D WAKE UP 2 OR 3 TIMES, CLIMB OUT OF BED, GRAB MY HAND AND SAY, “’MERE!” OR “M’ON!” AND TAKE ME TO THE KITCHEN, POINT TO THE FRIDGE AND SAY, “BABA” – IT’S PRECIOUS, BUT TIRING, AND NOT GOOD FOR YOU OR YOUR TEETH – SO NIGHT BEFORE LAST I DECIDED THAT WAS IT. NO MORE MULTIPLE BOTTLES. YOU CAN HAVE ONE AT BEDTIME AND ONE IN THE MORNING. IT WAS TERRIBLE. YOU’D WAKE UP SCREAMING FOR A BABA AND I WOULD HAVE TO HOLD YOU AND PHYSICALLY RESTRAIN YOU FROM GETTING OUT OF THE BED, AND YOU CRIED AND CRIED AND IT WAS AWFUL – BUT I DID IT OUT OF LOVE AND CONCERN FOR YOUR WELL BEING. LAST NIGHT WAS BETTER. ONLY ONCE DID YOU CRY LIKE THAT. SO I’M HOPING FOR IT GETTING BETTER.
YOU HAVEN’T HAD A PACI IN A WHILE. WE CUT THE TIPS OFF ALL YOUR PACI’S, AND IF YOU ASKED FOR A “FAFA”, WE’D GIVE YOU ONE, YOU’D SAY IT WAS “BROKEN” AND PUT IT DOWN. YOU DON’T EVEN LOOK AT THEM AT THE STORE NOW.
WE TOOK OUR CHRISTMAS PICTURE WITH SANTA. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE JUST YOU – BUT THE INSTANT WE TRIED TO SIT YOU IN HIS LAP, YOU STRAIGHTENED YOUR BODY AND TRIED TO SLIDE OUT OF HIS LAP, WHILE AT THE SAME TIME BEGINNING TO SCREAM. SO YOUR DADDY AND I ENDED UP IN THE PICTURE TOO. IT’S A TERRIBLE PICTURE. YOU’RE CLINGING TO ME, TERRIFIED, YOUR DADDY HAS THIS CHEESY GRIN ON HIS FACE AND I DO TOO – DADDY AND I WEREN’T SUPPOSED TO BE IN THE SHOT, SO WE AREN’T ALL DRESSED UP/CUTE LIKE YOU WERE. IT’S GREAT THO. FAMILY MEMORIES.
WE FOUND YOUR AUNT JADE. SHE’S 17. SHE LIVES IN TEXAS. SHE’S REALLY SWEET. YOUR DADDY AND I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR HER FOR ALMOST 9 YEARS NOW, AND THANKS TO FACEBOOK, WE FOUND HER – YAY TECHNOLOGY! ONE DAY, WHEN YOU’RE OLDER, WE CAN EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENED AND WHY WE ACTUALLY HAD TO LOOK FOR HER AND WHY HER AND DADDY WERE SEPARATED. BUT IT’S GREAT THEY HAVE EACH OTHER AGAIN. I’M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. IT MAKES ME WANT ANOTHER BABY. I WANT YOU TO HAVE THAT CLOSENESS WITH SOMEONE THAT ONLY A SIBLING CAN PROVIDE. I KNOW THAT SOME SIBLINGS DON’T GET ALONG, BUT I THINK IF RAISED IN THE RIGHT WAY, IN THE RIGHT HOUSEHOLD, THAT PARENTS CAN HELP THEIR CHILDREN BE CLOSE FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES. I KNOW MY BEST FRIEND, LIZ, HAS A GREAT RELATIONSHIP WITH HER SISTERS, PARTICULARLY HER YOUNGER SISTER, BUT THAT’S JUST B/C THEY’RE MUCH CLOSER IN AGE, BUT ALL 3 OF THEM LOVE EACH OTHER VERY VERY MUCH. AND ONE OF MY FRIENDS FROM HIGH SCHOOL HAS A SUPER GREAT RELATIONSHIP WITH HER SISTER AS WELL – AND I WANT YOU TO HAVE THAT. BUT I DON’T KNOW IF WE WILL HAVE ANOTHER BABY – BUT I JUST KNOW THAT SEEING OTHER HAPPY SIBLINGS, AND NOW THAT YOUR DADDY AND AUNT JADE HAVE EACH OTHER AGAIN, IT MAKES ME WANT ANOTHER FOR YOU TO HAVE A SISTER/BROTHER (ALTHOUGH I THINK IT’D BE A SISTER, I THINK NO MATTER HOW MANY KIDS I HAD, I’LL ALWAYS PRODUCE GIRLS, JUST A HUNCH I’VE ALWAYS HAD – BUT WATCH, I COULD GET PREGNANT AND HAVE A BOY JUST TO PROVE ME WRONG, LOL).
WELL, I LOVE YOU ANGEL BABY. YOU’RE SO WONDERFUL, AND I THANK GOD FOR EVERY SECOND I HAVE WITH YOU.
♥ MAMA
THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS YOU’VE BEEN SICK, SO YOU HAVEN’T EATEN MUCH AND YOU’VE GONE BACK TO MULTIPLE BOTTLES THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT. YOU’D WAKE UP 2 OR 3 TIMES, CLIMB OUT OF BED, GRAB MY HAND AND SAY, “’MERE!” OR “M’ON!” AND TAKE ME TO THE KITCHEN, POINT TO THE FRIDGE AND SAY, “BABA” – IT’S PRECIOUS, BUT TIRING, AND NOT GOOD FOR YOU OR YOUR TEETH – SO NIGHT BEFORE LAST I DECIDED THAT WAS IT. NO MORE MULTIPLE BOTTLES. YOU CAN HAVE ONE AT BEDTIME AND ONE IN THE MORNING. IT WAS TERRIBLE. YOU’D WAKE UP SCREAMING FOR A BABA AND I WOULD HAVE TO HOLD YOU AND PHYSICALLY RESTRAIN YOU FROM GETTING OUT OF THE BED, AND YOU CRIED AND CRIED AND IT WAS AWFUL – BUT I DID IT OUT OF LOVE AND CONCERN FOR YOUR WELL BEING. LAST NIGHT WAS BETTER. ONLY ONCE DID YOU CRY LIKE THAT. SO I’M HOPING FOR IT GETTING BETTER.
YOU HAVEN’T HAD A PACI IN A WHILE. WE CUT THE TIPS OFF ALL YOUR PACI’S, AND IF YOU ASKED FOR A “FAFA”, WE’D GIVE YOU ONE, YOU’D SAY IT WAS “BROKEN” AND PUT IT DOWN. YOU DON’T EVEN LOOK AT THEM AT THE STORE NOW.
WE TOOK OUR CHRISTMAS PICTURE WITH SANTA. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE JUST YOU – BUT THE INSTANT WE TRIED TO SIT YOU IN HIS LAP, YOU STRAIGHTENED YOUR BODY AND TRIED TO SLIDE OUT OF HIS LAP, WHILE AT THE SAME TIME BEGINNING TO SCREAM. SO YOUR DADDY AND I ENDED UP IN THE PICTURE TOO. IT’S A TERRIBLE PICTURE. YOU’RE CLINGING TO ME, TERRIFIED, YOUR DADDY HAS THIS CHEESY GRIN ON HIS FACE AND I DO TOO – DADDY AND I WEREN’T SUPPOSED TO BE IN THE SHOT, SO WE AREN’T ALL DRESSED UP/CUTE LIKE YOU WERE. IT’S GREAT THO. FAMILY MEMORIES.
WE FOUND YOUR AUNT JADE. SHE’S 17. SHE LIVES IN TEXAS. SHE’S REALLY SWEET. YOUR DADDY AND I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR HER FOR ALMOST 9 YEARS NOW, AND THANKS TO FACEBOOK, WE FOUND HER – YAY TECHNOLOGY! ONE DAY, WHEN YOU’RE OLDER, WE CAN EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENED AND WHY WE ACTUALLY HAD TO LOOK FOR HER AND WHY HER AND DADDY WERE SEPARATED. BUT IT’S GREAT THEY HAVE EACH OTHER AGAIN. I’M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. IT MAKES ME WANT ANOTHER BABY. I WANT YOU TO HAVE THAT CLOSENESS WITH SOMEONE THAT ONLY A SIBLING CAN PROVIDE. I KNOW THAT SOME SIBLINGS DON’T GET ALONG, BUT I THINK IF RAISED IN THE RIGHT WAY, IN THE RIGHT HOUSEHOLD, THAT PARENTS CAN HELP THEIR CHILDREN BE CLOSE FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES. I KNOW MY BEST FRIEND, LIZ, HAS A GREAT RELATIONSHIP WITH HER SISTERS, PARTICULARLY HER YOUNGER SISTER, BUT THAT’S JUST B/C THEY’RE MUCH CLOSER IN AGE, BUT ALL 3 OF THEM LOVE EACH OTHER VERY VERY MUCH. AND ONE OF MY FRIENDS FROM HIGH SCHOOL HAS A SUPER GREAT RELATIONSHIP WITH HER SISTER AS WELL – AND I WANT YOU TO HAVE THAT. BUT I DON’T KNOW IF WE WILL HAVE ANOTHER BABY – BUT I JUST KNOW THAT SEEING OTHER HAPPY SIBLINGS, AND NOW THAT YOUR DADDY AND AUNT JADE HAVE EACH OTHER AGAIN, IT MAKES ME WANT ANOTHER FOR YOU TO HAVE A SISTER/BROTHER (ALTHOUGH I THINK IT’D BE A SISTER, I THINK NO MATTER HOW MANY KIDS I HAD, I’LL ALWAYS PRODUCE GIRLS, JUST A HUNCH I’VE ALWAYS HAD – BUT WATCH, I COULD GET PREGNANT AND HAVE A BOY JUST TO PROVE ME WRONG, LOL).
WELL, I LOVE YOU ANGEL BABY. YOU’RE SO WONDERFUL, AND I THANK GOD FOR EVERY SECOND I HAVE WITH YOU.
♥ MAMA
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