Tuesday, November 22, 2011
LAYING IN BED WITH YOU EARLY THIS MORNING, LISTENING TO IT RAIN, I STARTED THINKING... I WILL NEVER NOT WANT TO SNUGGLE IN BED WITH YOU. NO MATTER HOW OLD YOU ARE, I'LL ALWAYS WANT TO CURL UP NEXT TO YOU, HOLD YOU, SMELL YOUR HAIR, KISS YOU ON THE CHEEK, AND JUST LOVE YOU. I'LL ALWAYS WANT THAT. I CAN'T IMAGINE NOT WANTING THAT. THERE'S NOTHING BETTER IN THIS WHOLE WORLD THAN SNUGGLES WITH YOU. WHEN YOU ROLL OVER AND LOOK AT ME WITH YOUR BEAUTIFUL EYES AND PUT YOUR TINY LITTLE HAND ON MY FACE AND SAY, "MOMMA. I LOVE YOU." IT'S AS IF GOD HIMSELF WERE TOUCHING MY HEART.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
YOU'RE SO STRONG WILLED LATELY. I KNOW IT'S NOT A BAD THING, BUT IT IS A SOURCE OF FRUSTRATION. IN THE MORNINGS, I NEED TO LEAVE, I HAVE TO GET TO WORK, BUT YOU KEEP ON SAYING, "JUST A MINUTE, JUST A MINUTE" B/C YOU HAVE TO FINISH PLAYING WITH YOUR EDWARD DOLL, OR PICK UP YOUR BABY DOLLS, JUST TO PUT THEM BACK DOWN TO PICK THEM BACK UP. YOU HAVE NO SENSE OF TIME, YOU SHOULDN'T, YOU'RE 2, BUT I DO AND I HAVE TO CONSTANTLY REMIND MYSELF OF THAT. IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT. YOU'RE 2. YOU DON'T KNOW THAT I'M LATE TO WORK EVERY MORNING B/C I NEVER GET UP IN TIME B/C I'M ALWAYS SO TIRED. YOU DON'T KNOW, YOU DON'T CARE, AND YOU SHOULDN'T.
FOUND OUT THIS MORNING THAT STEVE JOBS DIED YESTERDAY. NOT SURE IF YOU'LL REALLY KNOW WHO HE WAS, BUT JUST KNOW THAT HE WAS ONE WAS THE GREATEST TECHNOLOGICAL MINDS OF OUR TIME. HE CAME UP WITH THINGS PEOPLE DIDN'T KNOW THEY NEEDED AND CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT. AND IT'S SILLY IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, THINGS LIKE PORTABLE MUSIC PLAYERS, AND CELL PHONES, AND COMPUTERS, AND THINGS LIKE THAT, BUT REALLY - HE WAS GENIUS. SO, IF THEY DON'T MENTION HIM IN YOUR SCHOOL BOOKS, KNOW THAT HE EXISTED AND WAS GREAT.
OTHER THAN THAT, THERE'S NOT TOO MUCH NEW. WE'RE ALMOST DONE WITH THE HOUSE. FINISHING UP THE BATHROOM. I WANT TO TAKE A SHOWER SO BADLY I CAN'T SEE STRAIGHT. I WANT TO GET THAT PAINT OFF YOUR LEG THAT'S BEEN THERE FOR LIKE 2 DAYS BY BATHING YOU. I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO DRIVE TO ARKANSAS JUST TO DO THOSE THINGS. I'M READY FOR IT TO BE OVER.
YOU'RE READY TO POTTY TRAIN. I KNOW THIS B/C YOU ASK TO GO POTTY, YOU TELL ME WHEN YOU WANT YOUR DIAPER CHANGED - BUT WE DON'T HAVE MUCH OF A BATHROOM RIGHT NOW, SO IT'S NOT POSSIBLE, SO THAT SUCKS. I WANT TO GET YOU POTTY TRAINED, HOPEFULLY WE CAN GET TO IT NEXT WEEK.
FOUND OUT THIS MORNING THAT STEVE JOBS DIED YESTERDAY. NOT SURE IF YOU'LL REALLY KNOW WHO HE WAS, BUT JUST KNOW THAT HE WAS ONE WAS THE GREATEST TECHNOLOGICAL MINDS OF OUR TIME. HE CAME UP WITH THINGS PEOPLE DIDN'T KNOW THEY NEEDED AND CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT. AND IT'S SILLY IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, THINGS LIKE PORTABLE MUSIC PLAYERS, AND CELL PHONES, AND COMPUTERS, AND THINGS LIKE THAT, BUT REALLY - HE WAS GENIUS. SO, IF THEY DON'T MENTION HIM IN YOUR SCHOOL BOOKS, KNOW THAT HE EXISTED AND WAS GREAT.
OTHER THAN THAT, THERE'S NOT TOO MUCH NEW. WE'RE ALMOST DONE WITH THE HOUSE. FINISHING UP THE BATHROOM. I WANT TO TAKE A SHOWER SO BADLY I CAN'T SEE STRAIGHT. I WANT TO GET THAT PAINT OFF YOUR LEG THAT'S BEEN THERE FOR LIKE 2 DAYS BY BATHING YOU. I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO DRIVE TO ARKANSAS JUST TO DO THOSE THINGS. I'M READY FOR IT TO BE OVER.
YOU'RE READY TO POTTY TRAIN. I KNOW THIS B/C YOU ASK TO GO POTTY, YOU TELL ME WHEN YOU WANT YOUR DIAPER CHANGED - BUT WE DON'T HAVE MUCH OF A BATHROOM RIGHT NOW, SO IT'S NOT POSSIBLE, SO THAT SUCKS. I WANT TO GET YOU POTTY TRAINED, HOPEFULLY WE CAN GET TO IT NEXT WEEK.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
AT MANY POINTS IN YOUR LIFE, PEOPLE WILL MISUNDERSTAND YOU. THEY WILL THINK YOU ARE BEING FUNNY WHEN YOU AREN'T, THEY WILL THINK YOU'RE BEING MEAN WHEN YOU DON'T MEAN TO BE, THEY WILL THINK ALL DIFFERENT THINGS THAT YOU DIDN'T ANTICIPATE. IT'S OK. SOMETIMES IT SUCKS, SOMETIMES IT KIND OF HURTS YOUR FEELINGS THAT THEY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MEANT OR WHERE YOU WERE COMING FROM - BUT REMEMBER THAT IT'S OK. WE'RE ALL HUMAN, WE ALL INTERPRET THINGS DIFFERENTLY. SO JUST TAKE A DEEP BREATH, AND CALMLY EXPLAIN YOURSELF. EXPLAIN WHAT YOU MEANT TO SAY, OR HOW YOU MEANT TO BE TAKEN - AND HOPEFULLY THAT'LL CLEAR THINGS UP.
SOMETIMES YOU WON'T WANT TO CLARIFY YOURSELF. IT'LL BOTHER YOU THAT SOMEONE MISUNDERSTOOD YOU, BUT YOU DON'T SEE THE REASON TO HAVE TO JUSTIFY YOURSELF - AND THAT'S OK TOO. YOU KNOW WHAT YOU MEANT TO SAY, OR HOW YOU MEANT TO BE TAKEN, AND THAT'S OK.
SOMETIMES YOU WON'T WANT TO CLARIFY YOURSELF. IT'LL BOTHER YOU THAT SOMEONE MISUNDERSTOOD YOU, BUT YOU DON'T SEE THE REASON TO HAVE TO JUSTIFY YOURSELF - AND THAT'S OK TOO. YOU KNOW WHAT YOU MEANT TO SAY, OR HOW YOU MEANT TO BE TAKEN, AND THAT'S OK.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
YOU HAVEN'T HAD ANY MORE SEIZURES, NOW I'M STARTING TO QUESTION WHETHER THEY WERE SEIZURES AT ALL. KIDS ARE SO STRANGE SOMETIMES, LOL!!
WE'RE ATTEMPTING TO POTTY TRAIN THIS WEEK, WE'LL SEE HOW THAT GOES. SO FAR YOU'VE PEED ON THE FLOOR AND SPLASHED AND JUMPED IN IT, EXCLAIMING, "MOMMA! I PLAYIN'! I PLAYIN'!" WHILE IT WAS GROSS TO CLEAN A MASSIVE AMOUNT OF PEE UP OFF THE FLOOR, IT WAS REALLY REALLY CUTE TOO :)
YOU HAVE A NEW TOY - A STUFFED PENCIL THAT A COWORKER OF MINE'S LITTLE BOY (MIGUEL) GOT YOU - YOU NAMED IT PATRICK AND YOU SLEEP WITH IT AND BEEBO (YOUR NAME FOR WINNIE THE POOH). I'M TERRIFIED OF YOU GETTING TOO ATTACHED TO PATRICK B/C HE'S JUST A TOY THAT YOU WIN FROM ONE OF THOSE CLAW MACHINES, SO IT'S VERY LOW QUALITY CRAFTSMANSHIP AND MATERIALS - I DON'T ANTICIPATE HIM LASTING TOO LONG - AND I DON'T WANT YOU UPSET WHEN PATRICK BREAKS. I'LL TRY MY BEST TO FIX HIM, BUT SOMETIMES THOSE THINGS JUST CAN'T BE FIXED.
WE HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE ZOO IN A FEW MONTHS. IT'S JUST BEEN WAY TOO BLASTED HOT. I'M HOPING MAYBE IN THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS WE CAN GO.
I FOUND OUT THE OTHER NIGHT THAT THE ENTIRE UNDERSIDE OF OUR HOUSE IS COVERED IN MOLD AND THAT MAKES ME WORRY THAT THAT WOULD BE WHAT'S CAUSED YOU TO GET SICK AS OFTEN AS YOU SEEM TO - AND IF THOSE WERE SEIZURES, IF THE MOLD COULD BE CONTRIBUTING TO THAT TOO. I'M PRAYING THE INSURANCE COMPANY WILL COVER IT SO WE CAN FIX IT AND GET OUR HOUSE AND OUR LIVES HEALTHY AGAIN.
SPEAKING OF HEALTHY - I'M TRYING TO QUIT SMOKING. AGAIN. IF YOU EVER DO START, I WON'T JUDGE YOU, BUT PLEASE JUST DON'T START. IT'S SUCH A STUPID HABIT. YOU SMELL LIKE DIRTY ASHTRAY, YOU'RE BREATH REEKS, AND YOU CAN'T FREAKING BREATH. IT'S JUST DUMB. AND SOOOOOO HARD TO QUIT. SO HARD. THEY'VE FOUND NOW THAT NICOTINE IS EVEN MORE ADDICTIVE THAN HEROIN - SO JUST DON'T SMOKE, OK? BUT AGAIN, IF YOU DO, I'M NOT GONNA JUDGE YOU OR HOUND YOU ABOUT IT.
YOU STILL END UP IN BED WITH US EVERY NIGHT. I DON'T CARE. I LOVE SNUGGLES. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM! AND SO DOES YOUR DADDY.
WE'RE ATTEMPTING TO POTTY TRAIN THIS WEEK, WE'LL SEE HOW THAT GOES. SO FAR YOU'VE PEED ON THE FLOOR AND SPLASHED AND JUMPED IN IT, EXCLAIMING, "MOMMA! I PLAYIN'! I PLAYIN'!" WHILE IT WAS GROSS TO CLEAN A MASSIVE AMOUNT OF PEE UP OFF THE FLOOR, IT WAS REALLY REALLY CUTE TOO :)
YOU HAVE A NEW TOY - A STUFFED PENCIL THAT A COWORKER OF MINE'S LITTLE BOY (MIGUEL) GOT YOU - YOU NAMED IT PATRICK AND YOU SLEEP WITH IT AND BEEBO (YOUR NAME FOR WINNIE THE POOH). I'M TERRIFIED OF YOU GETTING TOO ATTACHED TO PATRICK B/C HE'S JUST A TOY THAT YOU WIN FROM ONE OF THOSE CLAW MACHINES, SO IT'S VERY LOW QUALITY CRAFTSMANSHIP AND MATERIALS - I DON'T ANTICIPATE HIM LASTING TOO LONG - AND I DON'T WANT YOU UPSET WHEN PATRICK BREAKS. I'LL TRY MY BEST TO FIX HIM, BUT SOMETIMES THOSE THINGS JUST CAN'T BE FIXED.
WE HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE ZOO IN A FEW MONTHS. IT'S JUST BEEN WAY TOO BLASTED HOT. I'M HOPING MAYBE IN THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS WE CAN GO.
I FOUND OUT THE OTHER NIGHT THAT THE ENTIRE UNDERSIDE OF OUR HOUSE IS COVERED IN MOLD AND THAT MAKES ME WORRY THAT THAT WOULD BE WHAT'S CAUSED YOU TO GET SICK AS OFTEN AS YOU SEEM TO - AND IF THOSE WERE SEIZURES, IF THE MOLD COULD BE CONTRIBUTING TO THAT TOO. I'M PRAYING THE INSURANCE COMPANY WILL COVER IT SO WE CAN FIX IT AND GET OUR HOUSE AND OUR LIVES HEALTHY AGAIN.
SPEAKING OF HEALTHY - I'M TRYING TO QUIT SMOKING. AGAIN. IF YOU EVER DO START, I WON'T JUDGE YOU, BUT PLEASE JUST DON'T START. IT'S SUCH A STUPID HABIT. YOU SMELL LIKE DIRTY ASHTRAY, YOU'RE BREATH REEKS, AND YOU CAN'T FREAKING BREATH. IT'S JUST DUMB. AND SOOOOOO HARD TO QUIT. SO HARD. THEY'VE FOUND NOW THAT NICOTINE IS EVEN MORE ADDICTIVE THAN HEROIN - SO JUST DON'T SMOKE, OK? BUT AGAIN, IF YOU DO, I'M NOT GONNA JUDGE YOU OR HOUND YOU ABOUT IT.
YOU STILL END UP IN BED WITH US EVERY NIGHT. I DON'T CARE. I LOVE SNUGGLES. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM! AND SO DOES YOUR DADDY.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
THERE ARE SOME THINGS IN THIS WORLD THAT I CANNOT PROTECT YOU FROM. THEY ARE THE THINGS THAT I FEAR AND HATE THE MOST.
YOU'RE HAVING SEIZURES. IT MAY BE NOTHING, BUT IT SCARES ME. WE'RE GOING TO THE DOCTOR AT 11:45 THIS MORNING ABOUT IT. DEPENDING ON WHAT I TELL THEM AND STUFF, WE MIGHT EVEN HAVE TO SEE A NEUROLOGIST.
A FEW MONTHS BACK, AS I WAS GETTING YOU DOWN FOR A NAP, YOU DID THIS WEIRD LITTLE 3 QUICK NOSE BREATHS AND THEN YOUR WHOLE BODY SEIZED UP AND YOUR EYES ROLLED BACK IN YOUR HEAD. THAT LASTED MAYBE 2 SECONDS AND IT HAPPENED LIKE 3 TIMES IN A ROW. FREAKED ME OUT, BUT I CALLED THE DOC AND THEY SAID THAT SOME KIDS GET THAT IN THE TIMES RIGHT BEFORE FALLING ASLEEP AND IT NORMALLY PASSES. IT PASSED. ONLY HAPPENED FOR A COUPLE DAYS AND WENT AWAY, SO I DIDN'T THINK ANYTHING OF IT AFTER IT STOPPED. BUT ABOUT 5 OR SO DAYS AGO, AS YOU WERE ABOUT TO FALL ASLEEP FOR A NAP ON THE COUCH, YOU SUCKED IN THRU YOUR NOSE REALLY HARD, LIKE YOU HAD A STOPPED UP NOSE. SO THAT'S ALL I THOUGHT - AND I THOUGHT NOTHING MORE OF IT. THEN YOU DID IT BEFORE YOU WENT TO SLEEP, SO I THOUGHT YOUR ALLERGIES MUST BE MESSING WITH YOU, SO I GAVE YOU BENADRYL. THEN IT HAPPENED THE NEXT DAY, ONLY A LITTLE MORE AND THEN AGAIN, AND I THOUGHT WE NEEDED TO GET A HUMIDIFIER FOR YOUR ROOM B/C MAYBE YOUR NOSE WAS REALLY DRY - THEN AFTER LAST NIGHT, I KNOW IT'S NOT YOUR NOSE. IT'S LIKE LITTLE SEIZURES OVER AND OVER AGAIN. YOU SUCK IN REALLY HARD THRU YOUR NOSE, AND AS YOU DO IT, YOUR WHOLE LITTLE BODY TENSES UP. YOU WOULD DO IT, THEN RELAX FOR A COUPLE SECONDS, THEN DO IT AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN. LASTED ABOUT 15 MINUTES LAST NIGHT BEFORE YOU FINALLY FELL ASLEEP. EVENTUALLY LAST NIGHT YOU WERE TENSING UP SO MUCH IT WAS AS IF YOU WERE TRYING TO CLIMB OVER YOUR BED RAIL OR UP ONTO MY LAP OR CHEST. ONCE YOU FALL ASLEEP YOU'RE FINE, YOU DON'T DO IT AGAIN - BUT LAST NIGHT EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU WOKE UP (BE IT FROM BAD DREAMS OR WET DIAPER), YOU WOULD DO IT AGAIN FOR ABOUT A MINUTE BEFORE FALLING BACK ASLEEP.
I CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER IF YOU HAVE A COLD. I CAN HELP YOU FEEL BETTER IF YOU HAVE HAND, FOOT, AND MOUTH. I CAN MAKE THE OUCHIE GO AWAY WITH A KISS IF YOU FALL DOWN. I CAN HELP IF YOU HAVE A TUMMY ACHE. I CAN'T STOP YOUR BRAIN FROM SENDING WEIRD SIGNALS TO YOUR BODY. I CAN'T STOP THAT. THERE CAN'T BE ANYTHING WRONG WITH YOU. I'M TELLING YOU NOW, YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE ANY PROBLEMS LIKE THAT. YOU JUST CAN'T. IF YOU DO, WE'LL WORK THRU IT AND MAKE IT BETTER - BUT I THINK WE JUST NIP THIS IN THE BUD NOW. TELL YOUR BRAIN THAT IT NEEDS TO STOP AND MAYBE THAT'LL WORK.
I'M NOT GOING TO REALLY FREAK OUT ABOUT IT YET THO. COULD BE NOTHING. COULD BE "NORMAL" EVEN THO I DON'T KNOW ANYONE THAT USED TO HAVE SEIZURES AS THEY WERE FALLING ASLEEP, BUT WHATEVER, MAYBE IT IS.
I LOVE YOU BABY.
BE WELL.
♥ MOMMA
YOU'RE HAVING SEIZURES. IT MAY BE NOTHING, BUT IT SCARES ME. WE'RE GOING TO THE DOCTOR AT 11:45 THIS MORNING ABOUT IT. DEPENDING ON WHAT I TELL THEM AND STUFF, WE MIGHT EVEN HAVE TO SEE A NEUROLOGIST.
A FEW MONTHS BACK, AS I WAS GETTING YOU DOWN FOR A NAP, YOU DID THIS WEIRD LITTLE 3 QUICK NOSE BREATHS AND THEN YOUR WHOLE BODY SEIZED UP AND YOUR EYES ROLLED BACK IN YOUR HEAD. THAT LASTED MAYBE 2 SECONDS AND IT HAPPENED LIKE 3 TIMES IN A ROW. FREAKED ME OUT, BUT I CALLED THE DOC AND THEY SAID THAT SOME KIDS GET THAT IN THE TIMES RIGHT BEFORE FALLING ASLEEP AND IT NORMALLY PASSES. IT PASSED. ONLY HAPPENED FOR A COUPLE DAYS AND WENT AWAY, SO I DIDN'T THINK ANYTHING OF IT AFTER IT STOPPED. BUT ABOUT 5 OR SO DAYS AGO, AS YOU WERE ABOUT TO FALL ASLEEP FOR A NAP ON THE COUCH, YOU SUCKED IN THRU YOUR NOSE REALLY HARD, LIKE YOU HAD A STOPPED UP NOSE. SO THAT'S ALL I THOUGHT - AND I THOUGHT NOTHING MORE OF IT. THEN YOU DID IT BEFORE YOU WENT TO SLEEP, SO I THOUGHT YOUR ALLERGIES MUST BE MESSING WITH YOU, SO I GAVE YOU BENADRYL. THEN IT HAPPENED THE NEXT DAY, ONLY A LITTLE MORE AND THEN AGAIN, AND I THOUGHT WE NEEDED TO GET A HUMIDIFIER FOR YOUR ROOM B/C MAYBE YOUR NOSE WAS REALLY DRY - THEN AFTER LAST NIGHT, I KNOW IT'S NOT YOUR NOSE. IT'S LIKE LITTLE SEIZURES OVER AND OVER AGAIN. YOU SUCK IN REALLY HARD THRU YOUR NOSE, AND AS YOU DO IT, YOUR WHOLE LITTLE BODY TENSES UP. YOU WOULD DO IT, THEN RELAX FOR A COUPLE SECONDS, THEN DO IT AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN. LASTED ABOUT 15 MINUTES LAST NIGHT BEFORE YOU FINALLY FELL ASLEEP. EVENTUALLY LAST NIGHT YOU WERE TENSING UP SO MUCH IT WAS AS IF YOU WERE TRYING TO CLIMB OVER YOUR BED RAIL OR UP ONTO MY LAP OR CHEST. ONCE YOU FALL ASLEEP YOU'RE FINE, YOU DON'T DO IT AGAIN - BUT LAST NIGHT EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU WOKE UP (BE IT FROM BAD DREAMS OR WET DIAPER), YOU WOULD DO IT AGAIN FOR ABOUT A MINUTE BEFORE FALLING BACK ASLEEP.
I CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER IF YOU HAVE A COLD. I CAN HELP YOU FEEL BETTER IF YOU HAVE HAND, FOOT, AND MOUTH. I CAN MAKE THE OUCHIE GO AWAY WITH A KISS IF YOU FALL DOWN. I CAN HELP IF YOU HAVE A TUMMY ACHE. I CAN'T STOP YOUR BRAIN FROM SENDING WEIRD SIGNALS TO YOUR BODY. I CAN'T STOP THAT. THERE CAN'T BE ANYTHING WRONG WITH YOU. I'M TELLING YOU NOW, YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE ANY PROBLEMS LIKE THAT. YOU JUST CAN'T. IF YOU DO, WE'LL WORK THRU IT AND MAKE IT BETTER - BUT I THINK WE JUST NIP THIS IN THE BUD NOW. TELL YOUR BRAIN THAT IT NEEDS TO STOP AND MAYBE THAT'LL WORK.
I'M NOT GOING TO REALLY FREAK OUT ABOUT IT YET THO. COULD BE NOTHING. COULD BE "NORMAL" EVEN THO I DON'T KNOW ANYONE THAT USED TO HAVE SEIZURES AS THEY WERE FALLING ASLEEP, BUT WHATEVER, MAYBE IT IS.
I LOVE YOU BABY.
BE WELL.
♥ MOMMA
Friday, June 10, 2011
CUTE THINGS YOU'VE DONE
THE OTHER DAY, I SAID, "YOU'RE SO PRETTY. DO YOU KNOW YOU'RE PRETTY?" AND YOU SAID, "YEA. YOU'RE SO PRETTY." AND POINTED TO ME. MADE ME FEEL SPECIAL AND AWESOME. I LOVE YOU.
YOU'VE REACHED A NEW LEVEL IN YOUR "NO" PHASE. WHEN YOU REACH CRITICAL MASS (WHAT I CALL YOUR TODDLER MELTDOWNS), YOUR ANSWER TO EVERYTHING IS "NO!" SO I'LL ASK YOU REGULAR QUESTIONS ACCOMPANIED BY SOME RIDICULOUS QUESTIONS. THIS EXCHANGE HAPPENED THE OTHER DAY:
YOU WERE AT YOUR NINA'S AND YOU DECIDED YOU WANTED TO TRY LIPSTICK. YOU GOT IT ALL OVER YOURSELF. YOU LOOKED LIKE GIRLS FROM THE 80'S THAT WANTED TO DATE ROBERT SMITH FROM THE CURE (I'LL TEACH YOU ABOUT THEM LATER, THEY'RE AWESOME). ANOTHER REASON WHY YOU'RE AWESOME AND I LOVE YOU!!!
YOU STILL END UP IN BED WITH US. I DON'T THINK THAT'S GOING TO CHANGE ANYTIME SOON, BUT THAT'S OK, BECAUSE I GET TO SEE SUPER CUTENESS EVERY MORNING AND IT MAKES ME LOVE YOU MORE (EVEN IF I DO SLEEP LIKE CRAP MOST THE NIGHT).
YOU'RE STILL THE MOST AWESOME THING IN MY LIFE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT SOMETIMES I THINK I COULD JUST EXPLODE. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING, BABY. I HOPE YOU'LL ALWAYS KNOW THAT. ME AND YOUR DADDY JUST ADORE YOU. AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT.
♥ MOMMA
THE OTHER DAY, I SAID, "YOU'RE SO PRETTY. DO YOU KNOW YOU'RE PRETTY?" AND YOU SAID, "YEA. YOU'RE SO PRETTY." AND POINTED TO ME. MADE ME FEEL SPECIAL AND AWESOME. I LOVE YOU.
YOU'VE REACHED A NEW LEVEL IN YOUR "NO" PHASE. WHEN YOU REACH CRITICAL MASS (WHAT I CALL YOUR TODDLER MELTDOWNS), YOUR ANSWER TO EVERYTHING IS "NO!" SO I'LL ASK YOU REGULAR QUESTIONS ACCOMPANIED BY SOME RIDICULOUS QUESTIONS. THIS EXCHANGE HAPPENED THE OTHER DAY:
- ME- "DO YOU WANT SOME NUGGETS?"
- YOU- "NO!"
- ME- "DO YOU WANT SOME GOLDFISH?"
- YOU- "NO!"
- ME- "DO YOU WANT TO GO TO THE MOON?"
- YOU- "NO!"
- ME- "DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WANT?"
- YOU- "NO!"
- ME- "DO YOU WANT SOME OCTOPUS?"
- YOU- "NO! .... OCTOPUS? MOMMA... OCTOPUS?"
YOU WERE AT YOUR NINA'S AND YOU DECIDED YOU WANTED TO TRY LIPSTICK. YOU GOT IT ALL OVER YOURSELF. YOU LOOKED LIKE GIRLS FROM THE 80'S THAT WANTED TO DATE ROBERT SMITH FROM THE CURE (I'LL TEACH YOU ABOUT THEM LATER, THEY'RE AWESOME). ANOTHER REASON WHY YOU'RE AWESOME AND I LOVE YOU!!!
YOU STILL END UP IN BED WITH US. I DON'T THINK THAT'S GOING TO CHANGE ANYTIME SOON, BUT THAT'S OK, BECAUSE I GET TO SEE SUPER CUTENESS EVERY MORNING AND IT MAKES ME LOVE YOU MORE (EVEN IF I DO SLEEP LIKE CRAP MOST THE NIGHT).
YOU'RE STILL THE MOST AWESOME THING IN MY LIFE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT SOMETIMES I THINK I COULD JUST EXPLODE. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING, BABY. I HOPE YOU'LL ALWAYS KNOW THAT. ME AND YOUR DADDY JUST ADORE YOU. AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT.
♥ MOMMA
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
I JUST CAN’T BELIEVE HOW FAST YOU’RE GROWING. EVERYONE SAYS THAT TIME SEEMS TO FLY WHEN YOU’RE WATCHING YOUR CHILDREN GROW UP, AND THEY’RE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. YOU SEEM TO LEARN NEW WORDS EVERY DAY. WHEN YOU COUNT TO TEN, I CAN HEAR YOUR VOICE CHANGING FROM THAT TODDLER VOICE TO AN ACTUAL CHILD’S VOICE. I HATE IT, BUT I LOVE IT. YOU STILL SLEEP IN BED WITH US EVERY NIGHT. I DON’T CARE. I LOVE HAVING YOU NEAR ME ALL NIGHT TO CUDDLE. YOU SLEEP IN YOUR BED FOR 3-5 HOURS PER NIGHT, BUT ALWAYS AROUND MIDNIGHT OR 1AM YOU WAKE UP CALLING, “MOMMA. MOMMA” AND I GET UP, HOLD YOU AND BRING YOU TO BED WITH US. YOU’RE SLEEPING BETTER, SO I’M SLEEPING BETTER, AND HECK, EVEN IF YOU AREN’T SLEEPING WELL, I’M OK WITH IT B/C I KNOW THIS TIME IS PASSING SO QUICKLY, I NEED TO GET MY LOVE AND SNUGGLES IN BEFORE YOU DON’T WANT THEM ANYMORE.
YOU LOVE TO COLOR, YOU PREFER MARKERS SO YOU CAN COLOR ALL OVER YOURSELF, BUT YOU DON’T GET THEM TOO OFTEN. YOU LOVE TO EAT TOAST WITH BUTTER. YOU DON’T LIKE JELLY OR PEANUT BUTTER OR ANYTHING ELSE ON IT, JUST BUTTER. YOU’LL EAT THINGS FOR YOUR NEENA AND YOUR GRAMMA (GRANDMA LINDA) THAT YOU WON’T EAT FOR ME, BUT I THINK THAT’S PAR FOR THE COURSE. KIDS’LL DO THINGS FOR OTHER PEOPLE THAT THEY JUST WON’T DO FOR MOMMA AND DADDY. YOU LOVE THE ZOO, AND YOUR PEEPAW AND DOTTIE RENEWED OUR MEMBERSHIP THIS YEAR FOR OUR BIRTHDAYS, SO THAT’S AWESOME. WE WENT TO THE ZOO THIS PAST SUNDAY AND WHILE LOOKING AT THE OSTRICHES, REALIZED THAT THEY WERE ABOUT TO MATE, AND YOU WERE ON MY SHOULDERS, SO I JUST TURNED AROUND AND GOT YOU TO LOOK AT THE ELEPHANTS. I DON’T WANT TO HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHAT THEY WERE DOING TO YOU AT AGE 2, I’D PROBABLY JUST SAY THEY WERE DANCING OR SOMETHING IF YOU EVEN ASKED. BUT YOU DIDN’T NOTICE THEM, SO WHILE IT WAS AWKWARD FOR YOUR DADDY AND ME (AND THE PARENTS ACROSS THE FENCE THAT HAD KIDS THAT WERE OLD ENOUGH TO KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON, HAHAHA), IT DIDN’T EVEN REGISTER ON YOUR RADAR.
YOU LOVE MAYA. YOU DON’T REMEMBER LULU, WHICH IS SAD, BUT I CAN’T BLAME YOU B/C YOU WEREN’T OLD ENOUGH TO REMEMBER HER. I KNOW THAT MAYA’S GETTING OLDER, AND HER TIME IS APPROACHING PROBABLY FASTER THAN I LIKE TO THINK – I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT WHEN IT HAPPENS IT WON’T HURT YOU, OR THAT REALLY, YOU WON’T BE OLD ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH IT SUCKS TO LOSE A PET. AND ONE DAY, LATER ON, WHEN YOU’RE OLDER, MAYBE WE CAN GET ANOTHER PUPPY THAT YOU CAN GROW TO LOVE – AND BY THE TIME IT’S THAT DOGS TIME, YOU’LL BE MUCH MUCH OLDER AND CAN HANDLE IT BETTER. ALTHOUGH, IT’S NEVER EASY. EVEN AT 33 I STILL GET SAD THINKING ABOUT LULU. I EVEN MISS MY FIRST DOG, TAFFY. SHE WAS SO AWESOME. YOU’D HAVE LOVED HER.
ANYWAYS, THAT’S ALL FOR NOW. YOU’RE THE MOST AMAZING THING IN THE WORLD AND I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU’LL EVER KNOW.
♥ MOMMA
YOU LOVE TO COLOR, YOU PREFER MARKERS SO YOU CAN COLOR ALL OVER YOURSELF, BUT YOU DON’T GET THEM TOO OFTEN. YOU LOVE TO EAT TOAST WITH BUTTER. YOU DON’T LIKE JELLY OR PEANUT BUTTER OR ANYTHING ELSE ON IT, JUST BUTTER. YOU’LL EAT THINGS FOR YOUR NEENA AND YOUR GRAMMA (GRANDMA LINDA) THAT YOU WON’T EAT FOR ME, BUT I THINK THAT’S PAR FOR THE COURSE. KIDS’LL DO THINGS FOR OTHER PEOPLE THAT THEY JUST WON’T DO FOR MOMMA AND DADDY. YOU LOVE THE ZOO, AND YOUR PEEPAW AND DOTTIE RENEWED OUR MEMBERSHIP THIS YEAR FOR OUR BIRTHDAYS, SO THAT’S AWESOME. WE WENT TO THE ZOO THIS PAST SUNDAY AND WHILE LOOKING AT THE OSTRICHES, REALIZED THAT THEY WERE ABOUT TO MATE, AND YOU WERE ON MY SHOULDERS, SO I JUST TURNED AROUND AND GOT YOU TO LOOK AT THE ELEPHANTS. I DON’T WANT TO HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHAT THEY WERE DOING TO YOU AT AGE 2, I’D PROBABLY JUST SAY THEY WERE DANCING OR SOMETHING IF YOU EVEN ASKED. BUT YOU DIDN’T NOTICE THEM, SO WHILE IT WAS AWKWARD FOR YOUR DADDY AND ME (AND THE PARENTS ACROSS THE FENCE THAT HAD KIDS THAT WERE OLD ENOUGH TO KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON, HAHAHA), IT DIDN’T EVEN REGISTER ON YOUR RADAR.
YOU LOVE MAYA. YOU DON’T REMEMBER LULU, WHICH IS SAD, BUT I CAN’T BLAME YOU B/C YOU WEREN’T OLD ENOUGH TO REMEMBER HER. I KNOW THAT MAYA’S GETTING OLDER, AND HER TIME IS APPROACHING PROBABLY FASTER THAN I LIKE TO THINK – I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT WHEN IT HAPPENS IT WON’T HURT YOU, OR THAT REALLY, YOU WON’T BE OLD ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH IT SUCKS TO LOSE A PET. AND ONE DAY, LATER ON, WHEN YOU’RE OLDER, MAYBE WE CAN GET ANOTHER PUPPY THAT YOU CAN GROW TO LOVE – AND BY THE TIME IT’S THAT DOGS TIME, YOU’LL BE MUCH MUCH OLDER AND CAN HANDLE IT BETTER. ALTHOUGH, IT’S NEVER EASY. EVEN AT 33 I STILL GET SAD THINKING ABOUT LULU. I EVEN MISS MY FIRST DOG, TAFFY. SHE WAS SO AWESOME. YOU’D HAVE LOVED HER.
ANYWAYS, THAT’S ALL FOR NOW. YOU’RE THE MOST AMAZING THING IN THE WORLD AND I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU’LL EVER KNOW.
♥ MOMMA
Monday, February 7, 2011
WE GOT YOU A BIG GIRL BED THIS PAST SATURDAY. YOU’VE BEEN REALLY HATING YOUR CRIB, AND WE GOT OUR TAX RETURN BACK, SO I DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO DO AWAY WITH THE BABA AND DO AWAY WITH THE CRIB. YOUR ROOM IS SO CUTE NOW AND YOU LOVE IT. I PUT A POSTER OF HAPPY BUNNY UP AND YOU LOOOOOVE YOUR BUNNY ON YOUR WALL. YOU LOVE YOUR BED. YOU STILL END UP IN BED WITH US, BUT IT’S OK B/C YOU STILL LOVE YOUR BED.
I CRIED WHEN YOUR DADDY BROUGHT IT HOME B/C WE HAVE A BED FOR A LITTLE PERSON NOW, NOT A BABY. I KNOW YOU’RE GROWING UP, BUT I WANT YOU TO ALWAYS BE MY BABY, YOU WILL, JUST A GROWING BABY.
THIS MORNING WAS GREAT. YOU AND I SNUGGLED, AND YOU GAVE ME LOTS OF KISSES. IT WAS HEAVEN.
YOU HAVE FINALLY FOUND A DOLL THAT YOU REALY LIKE. IT’S A WINNIE THE POOH, BUT YOU CALL HIM BEEBO AND YOU LIKE TO KNOW WHERE HE IS AT ALL TIMES.
OTHER THAN THAT, NOT MUCH NEW IS GOING ON WITH US.
YOUR DADDY AND I ARE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY. WHAT TO GET YOU AND HOW TO CELEBRATE.
YOU’VE STARTED CALLING ME MOMMY, WHICH I MUST SAY I ENJOY EVEN MORE THAN MOMMA. IT’S JUST SO CUTE TO HEAR YOU SAY MOMMY.
I LOVE YOU BABY. MORE THAN ANYTHING.
♥ MOMMY
I CRIED WHEN YOUR DADDY BROUGHT IT HOME B/C WE HAVE A BED FOR A LITTLE PERSON NOW, NOT A BABY. I KNOW YOU’RE GROWING UP, BUT I WANT YOU TO ALWAYS BE MY BABY, YOU WILL, JUST A GROWING BABY.
THIS MORNING WAS GREAT. YOU AND I SNUGGLED, AND YOU GAVE ME LOTS OF KISSES. IT WAS HEAVEN.
YOU HAVE FINALLY FOUND A DOLL THAT YOU REALY LIKE. IT’S A WINNIE THE POOH, BUT YOU CALL HIM BEEBO AND YOU LIKE TO KNOW WHERE HE IS AT ALL TIMES.
OTHER THAN THAT, NOT MUCH NEW IS GOING ON WITH US.
YOUR DADDY AND I ARE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY. WHAT TO GET YOU AND HOW TO CELEBRATE.
YOU’VE STARTED CALLING ME MOMMY, WHICH I MUST SAY I ENJOY EVEN MORE THAN MOMMA. IT’S JUST SO CUTE TO HEAR YOU SAY MOMMY.
I LOVE YOU BABY. MORE THAN ANYTHING.
♥ MOMMY
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I ALWAYS HAVE TO TOUCH YOU IN SOME WAY. IT’S LIKE I NEED CONSTANT PHYSICAL CONTACT. WHETHER IT’S MY FOOT TOUCHING YOURS, OR RUBBING YOUR BACK, PATTING YOUR HEAD, KISSING YOUR CHEEK, HOLDING YOUR HAND, HUGGING YOU, IT DOESN’T MATTER, I JUST ALWAYS WANT TO TOUCH YOU. LIKE IF I’M NOT TOUCHING YOU, YOU’RE NOT REAL OR SOMETHING. AND WHEN I’M HOLDING YOU AND ROCKING YOU TO SLEEP, I PUT MY FACE TO YOURS, AND BREATHE IN DEEPLY ON YOUR EXHALES. LIKE IT’LL SOMEHOW MAKE ME CLOSER TO YOU BY BREATHING IN YOUR BREATH. SILLY, I KNOW, BUT I’M JUST SO IN LOVE WITH YOU. EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU IS THE MOST AMAZING THING IN THE WORLD. YOU CAN BE SUCH A LITTLE BUTTHEAD, AND CAN HIT ME AND SMART OFF TO ME (YES, YOU’VE STARTED THAT), AND THEN YOU LOOK AT ME AND ALL THE FRUSTRATION AND HURT FEELINGS GOES AND I’M OVERWHELMED WITH ABSOLUTE LOVE. I WISH I COULD GIVE YOU EVERYTHING. I WISH I COULD GIVE YOU THE WHOLE WORLD. JUST THINKING OF YOU MAKES MY HEART FEEL LIKE IT’S GOING TO EXPLODE. I JUST ADORE YOU. EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. I ALWAYS WILL – EVEN WHEN YOU’RE AN UNRULY TEENAGER, LOL!
♥ MOMMA
♥ MOMMA
Thursday, January 6, 2011
I LOVE YOU. I TELL YOU THAT ALL THE TIME, AND IT’S ALWAYS TRUE. YOU’RE LEARNING TO SAY MORE THINGS, YOU’RE GROWING FASTER AND FASTER. YOU’RE THE MOST AMAZING LITTLE PERSON IN THE WHOLE WORLD. YOU ALWAYS WILL BE. YOU STILL ONLY SAY, “I YOU” OR “I MAMA” INSTEAD OF, “I LOVE YOU” OR “I LOVE YOU MAMA” – STILL PRECIOUS. I’VE TRIED TO TEACH YOU “LOVE” AND YOU REPEAT “YOVE”, OR JUST SAY “I YOU” INSTEAD OF THE WORD. CUTENESS!
THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS YOU’VE BEEN SICK, SO YOU HAVEN’T EATEN MUCH AND YOU’VE GONE BACK TO MULTIPLE BOTTLES THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT. YOU’D WAKE UP 2 OR 3 TIMES, CLIMB OUT OF BED, GRAB MY HAND AND SAY, “’MERE!” OR “M’ON!” AND TAKE ME TO THE KITCHEN, POINT TO THE FRIDGE AND SAY, “BABA” – IT’S PRECIOUS, BUT TIRING, AND NOT GOOD FOR YOU OR YOUR TEETH – SO NIGHT BEFORE LAST I DECIDED THAT WAS IT. NO MORE MULTIPLE BOTTLES. YOU CAN HAVE ONE AT BEDTIME AND ONE IN THE MORNING. IT WAS TERRIBLE. YOU’D WAKE UP SCREAMING FOR A BABA AND I WOULD HAVE TO HOLD YOU AND PHYSICALLY RESTRAIN YOU FROM GETTING OUT OF THE BED, AND YOU CRIED AND CRIED AND IT WAS AWFUL – BUT I DID IT OUT OF LOVE AND CONCERN FOR YOUR WELL BEING. LAST NIGHT WAS BETTER. ONLY ONCE DID YOU CRY LIKE THAT. SO I’M HOPING FOR IT GETTING BETTER.
YOU HAVEN’T HAD A PACI IN A WHILE. WE CUT THE TIPS OFF ALL YOUR PACI’S, AND IF YOU ASKED FOR A “FAFA”, WE’D GIVE YOU ONE, YOU’D SAY IT WAS “BROKEN” AND PUT IT DOWN. YOU DON’T EVEN LOOK AT THEM AT THE STORE NOW.
WE TOOK OUR CHRISTMAS PICTURE WITH SANTA. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE JUST YOU – BUT THE INSTANT WE TRIED TO SIT YOU IN HIS LAP, YOU STRAIGHTENED YOUR BODY AND TRIED TO SLIDE OUT OF HIS LAP, WHILE AT THE SAME TIME BEGINNING TO SCREAM. SO YOUR DADDY AND I ENDED UP IN THE PICTURE TOO. IT’S A TERRIBLE PICTURE. YOU’RE CLINGING TO ME, TERRIFIED, YOUR DADDY HAS THIS CHEESY GRIN ON HIS FACE AND I DO TOO – DADDY AND I WEREN’T SUPPOSED TO BE IN THE SHOT, SO WE AREN’T ALL DRESSED UP/CUTE LIKE YOU WERE. IT’S GREAT THO. FAMILY MEMORIES.
WE FOUND YOUR AUNT JADE. SHE’S 17. SHE LIVES IN TEXAS. SHE’S REALLY SWEET. YOUR DADDY AND I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR HER FOR ALMOST 9 YEARS NOW, AND THANKS TO FACEBOOK, WE FOUND HER – YAY TECHNOLOGY! ONE DAY, WHEN YOU’RE OLDER, WE CAN EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENED AND WHY WE ACTUALLY HAD TO LOOK FOR HER AND WHY HER AND DADDY WERE SEPARATED. BUT IT’S GREAT THEY HAVE EACH OTHER AGAIN. I’M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. IT MAKES ME WANT ANOTHER BABY. I WANT YOU TO HAVE THAT CLOSENESS WITH SOMEONE THAT ONLY A SIBLING CAN PROVIDE. I KNOW THAT SOME SIBLINGS DON’T GET ALONG, BUT I THINK IF RAISED IN THE RIGHT WAY, IN THE RIGHT HOUSEHOLD, THAT PARENTS CAN HELP THEIR CHILDREN BE CLOSE FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES. I KNOW MY BEST FRIEND, LIZ, HAS A GREAT RELATIONSHIP WITH HER SISTERS, PARTICULARLY HER YOUNGER SISTER, BUT THAT’S JUST B/C THEY’RE MUCH CLOSER IN AGE, BUT ALL 3 OF THEM LOVE EACH OTHER VERY VERY MUCH. AND ONE OF MY FRIENDS FROM HIGH SCHOOL HAS A SUPER GREAT RELATIONSHIP WITH HER SISTER AS WELL – AND I WANT YOU TO HAVE THAT. BUT I DON’T KNOW IF WE WILL HAVE ANOTHER BABY – BUT I JUST KNOW THAT SEEING OTHER HAPPY SIBLINGS, AND NOW THAT YOUR DADDY AND AUNT JADE HAVE EACH OTHER AGAIN, IT MAKES ME WANT ANOTHER FOR YOU TO HAVE A SISTER/BROTHER (ALTHOUGH I THINK IT’D BE A SISTER, I THINK NO MATTER HOW MANY KIDS I HAD, I’LL ALWAYS PRODUCE GIRLS, JUST A HUNCH I’VE ALWAYS HAD – BUT WATCH, I COULD GET PREGNANT AND HAVE A BOY JUST TO PROVE ME WRONG, LOL).
WELL, I LOVE YOU ANGEL BABY. YOU’RE SO WONDERFUL, AND I THANK GOD FOR EVERY SECOND I HAVE WITH YOU.
♥ MAMA
THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS YOU’VE BEEN SICK, SO YOU HAVEN’T EATEN MUCH AND YOU’VE GONE BACK TO MULTIPLE BOTTLES THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT. YOU’D WAKE UP 2 OR 3 TIMES, CLIMB OUT OF BED, GRAB MY HAND AND SAY, “’MERE!” OR “M’ON!” AND TAKE ME TO THE KITCHEN, POINT TO THE FRIDGE AND SAY, “BABA” – IT’S PRECIOUS, BUT TIRING, AND NOT GOOD FOR YOU OR YOUR TEETH – SO NIGHT BEFORE LAST I DECIDED THAT WAS IT. NO MORE MULTIPLE BOTTLES. YOU CAN HAVE ONE AT BEDTIME AND ONE IN THE MORNING. IT WAS TERRIBLE. YOU’D WAKE UP SCREAMING FOR A BABA AND I WOULD HAVE TO HOLD YOU AND PHYSICALLY RESTRAIN YOU FROM GETTING OUT OF THE BED, AND YOU CRIED AND CRIED AND IT WAS AWFUL – BUT I DID IT OUT OF LOVE AND CONCERN FOR YOUR WELL BEING. LAST NIGHT WAS BETTER. ONLY ONCE DID YOU CRY LIKE THAT. SO I’M HOPING FOR IT GETTING BETTER.
YOU HAVEN’T HAD A PACI IN A WHILE. WE CUT THE TIPS OFF ALL YOUR PACI’S, AND IF YOU ASKED FOR A “FAFA”, WE’D GIVE YOU ONE, YOU’D SAY IT WAS “BROKEN” AND PUT IT DOWN. YOU DON’T EVEN LOOK AT THEM AT THE STORE NOW.
WE TOOK OUR CHRISTMAS PICTURE WITH SANTA. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE JUST YOU – BUT THE INSTANT WE TRIED TO SIT YOU IN HIS LAP, YOU STRAIGHTENED YOUR BODY AND TRIED TO SLIDE OUT OF HIS LAP, WHILE AT THE SAME TIME BEGINNING TO SCREAM. SO YOUR DADDY AND I ENDED UP IN THE PICTURE TOO. IT’S A TERRIBLE PICTURE. YOU’RE CLINGING TO ME, TERRIFIED, YOUR DADDY HAS THIS CHEESY GRIN ON HIS FACE AND I DO TOO – DADDY AND I WEREN’T SUPPOSED TO BE IN THE SHOT, SO WE AREN’T ALL DRESSED UP/CUTE LIKE YOU WERE. IT’S GREAT THO. FAMILY MEMORIES.
WE FOUND YOUR AUNT JADE. SHE’S 17. SHE LIVES IN TEXAS. SHE’S REALLY SWEET. YOUR DADDY AND I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR HER FOR ALMOST 9 YEARS NOW, AND THANKS TO FACEBOOK, WE FOUND HER – YAY TECHNOLOGY! ONE DAY, WHEN YOU’RE OLDER, WE CAN EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENED AND WHY WE ACTUALLY HAD TO LOOK FOR HER AND WHY HER AND DADDY WERE SEPARATED. BUT IT’S GREAT THEY HAVE EACH OTHER AGAIN. I’M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. IT MAKES ME WANT ANOTHER BABY. I WANT YOU TO HAVE THAT CLOSENESS WITH SOMEONE THAT ONLY A SIBLING CAN PROVIDE. I KNOW THAT SOME SIBLINGS DON’T GET ALONG, BUT I THINK IF RAISED IN THE RIGHT WAY, IN THE RIGHT HOUSEHOLD, THAT PARENTS CAN HELP THEIR CHILDREN BE CLOSE FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES. I KNOW MY BEST FRIEND, LIZ, HAS A GREAT RELATIONSHIP WITH HER SISTERS, PARTICULARLY HER YOUNGER SISTER, BUT THAT’S JUST B/C THEY’RE MUCH CLOSER IN AGE, BUT ALL 3 OF THEM LOVE EACH OTHER VERY VERY MUCH. AND ONE OF MY FRIENDS FROM HIGH SCHOOL HAS A SUPER GREAT RELATIONSHIP WITH HER SISTER AS WELL – AND I WANT YOU TO HAVE THAT. BUT I DON’T KNOW IF WE WILL HAVE ANOTHER BABY – BUT I JUST KNOW THAT SEEING OTHER HAPPY SIBLINGS, AND NOW THAT YOUR DADDY AND AUNT JADE HAVE EACH OTHER AGAIN, IT MAKES ME WANT ANOTHER FOR YOU TO HAVE A SISTER/BROTHER (ALTHOUGH I THINK IT’D BE A SISTER, I THINK NO MATTER HOW MANY KIDS I HAD, I’LL ALWAYS PRODUCE GIRLS, JUST A HUNCH I’VE ALWAYS HAD – BUT WATCH, I COULD GET PREGNANT AND HAVE A BOY JUST TO PROVE ME WRONG, LOL).
WELL, I LOVE YOU ANGEL BABY. YOU’RE SO WONDERFUL, AND I THANK GOD FOR EVERY SECOND I HAVE WITH YOU.
♥ MAMA
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