I DROPPED YOU OFF AT DAYCARE TODAY AND YOU CRIED LIKE YOU NEVER HAVE BEFORE.

IT WAS HEARTBREAKING.

NORMALLY, WHEN I TAKE YOU TO LINDA’S, YOU WANT LINDA TO HOLD YOU, YOU GIVE HER KISSES AND HUGS, YOU LOVE HER – TODAY YOU DIDN’T WANT HER NEAR YOU, YOU KICKED AWAY FROM HER WHEN I HANDED YOU TO HER, YOU CRIED AND SNOTTED AS I LEFT YOU THERE. IT WAS TERRIBLE AND I’M SORRY.

I WISH I COULD STAY HOME WITH YOU FOREVER. YOU’RE SO WONDERFUL AND I’M SORRY I HAVE TO LEAVE YOU WITH SOMEONE ELSE DURING THE DAY.

WHILE I WAS ON MATERNITY LEAVE, DURING YOUR FIRST 3 MONTHS OF LIFE, I THOUGHT OF EVERY WAY POSSIBLE THAT I COULD STAY HOME WITH YOU – FROM WORKING PART TIME, TO JUST QUITTING – AND NONE WOULD WORK. I WORKED MY REGULAR JOB PART TIME FOR ABOUT 6 MONTHS, BUT THINGS WERE TOO HARD ON US FINANCIALLY. WE COULDN’T DO IT. I’M SO SORRY BABY. PLEASE KNOW THAT I NEVER WANTED ANYONE TO WATCH YOU OTHER THAN ME. PLEASE KNOW THAT IF I HAD MY WAY, I’D BE A STAY AT HOME MOM.

I LOVE YOU BABY.
♥ MOMMA